I sat on the swing in my garden, deep in thought, my dream of homeschooling my sons shattered in a million pieces at my feet. Weighing heavy on my mind was the fact that in a few short days, my sons whom I had homeschooled for the last 4 years were going to be attending a local state primary school.
As I sat there feeling like there was no one who really understood what this was like to send your sons away when you didn't really want to, Holy Spirit whispered to me. He said, " I know what it is like. I sent my Son to grow inside a human womb. To be cared for by parents that were imperfect." And in that moment I knew that there was someone who knew exactly how it hurt to be away from a child you love so deeply. I knew that Father knows what it is like to have your son in the care of others who may not love them like you do, or be able to care for them they way you do.
I asked through a cascade of tears, "Will you look after them? Will you take care of them when they aren't with me?" And in my heart I immediately felt foolish for asking such a question. He whispered ever so gently, "I've got this." And I knew, that the God who created the Heavens and the Earth is the same God who looks after the sparrow. I knew the God who holds my world in the palm of His hand, and loved me so much that He sent His son down from Heaven to conquer my sinful nature, just so we could be be together for Eternity would indeed look after my sons. And in that moment, I had peace that everything would be OK.
Still taking lessons from the King,