Tuesday, 10 July 2012

I've got this or You hold my world in the palm of Your Hand


I sat on the swing in my garden,  deep in thought, my dream of homeschooling my sons shattered in a million pieces at my feet. Weighing heavy on my mind was the fact that in a few short days, my sons whom I had homeschooled for the last 4 years were going to be attending a local state primary school.

As I sat there feeling like there was no one who really understood what this was like to send your sons away when you didn't really want to, Holy Spirit whispered to me. He said, " I know what it is like. I sent my Son to grow inside a human womb. To be cared for by parents that were imperfect." And in that moment I knew that there was someone who knew exactly how it hurt to be away from a child you love so deeply. I knew that Father knows what it is like to have your son in the care of others who may not love them like you do, or be able to care for them they way you do.


I asked through a cascade of tears, "Will you look after them? Will you take care of them when they aren't with me?" And in my heart I immediately felt foolish for asking such a question. He whispered ever so gently, "I've got this." And I knew, that the God who  created the Heavens and the Earth is the same God who looks after the sparrow. I knew the God who holds my world in the palm of His hand, and loved me so much that He sent His son down from Heaven to conquer my sinful nature, just so we could be be together for Eternity would indeed look after my sons. And in that moment, I had peace that everything would be OK.



Still taking lessons from the King,




18 comments:

  1. thank you for sharing your journey:)

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    1. You are so welcome. Thanks for coming along on the journey with me xo

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  2. Such a beautiful post. With only being at home with Miss8 for the first nine months of her life and then having to entrust her to the care of others, even her fortnightly weekends away, I've had to really trust that God is looking out for her. Even now when she's at school I pray that she can feel His presence when she feels down. It's a blessing to know that He is with her. Pxo

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    1. It's where the rubber hits the road in our faith and we really do trust Him with our children. xo

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  3. Thinking of you as you and your family take this next step. The title of your post says it all - God is holding you all in the palm of His hand.xx

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  4. yep He's got them and He's got you too, hope the week is going well. Big hugs to you xxoo

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  5. Hang in there Girl! What an Awesome and Mighty Father we have! He will keep them in His hands as well as you!!! What an heartfelt lesson for you to share with us too. I will send some extra prayers your way!

    Big Hugs!

    PS... sorry I have been missing for a while. I got derailed on my end, but hoping to get back on track soon.

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  6. I read this and felt like crying. I sent my two boys to public school after homeschooling them all their little lives. I sent my youngest to preschool this summer and I have no idea what the new school year will look like for all four. How quickly I forget that God is more than able to take care of my little ones when I am far away from them. He's big enough and He's strong enough.

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    1. So you my friend know exactly what I'm going through. {{hugs}} for you! He is big enough and He's strong enough xo

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  7. Say to those who are of a fearful and hasty heart, Be strong, fear not! Behold, your God will come with vengeance; with the recompense of God He will come and save you. Isaiah 35:4

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  8. This brought me to tears, Jo. I think the biggest fears that we struggle with aren't whether or not God will take care of things, but rather that we made the wrong decision and we are out of His will.

    I know it always is for me, because there are still parts that are broken; pieces of my past that still try to jab lies into my heart and convince me that if I go left instead of right that somehow I have committed an unpardonable sin.

    Though His grace I am learning to recognize when this happens and receive His grace!

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Love,
Jo Princess Warrior xo