Saturday, 16 June 2012

There is nothing permanent except change



Change is coming to our family. It may be temporary. It may be permanent. I'm not sure. But I am sure that something has to change.

Making a huge decision that will effect the whole family is never easy. My husband deals with the decision making process very differently to myself. He likes to take his time and methodically think things through logically. Which drives me crazy.

I, on the other hand, lay awake at night-unable to switch my brain off, and go over every possible scenario. Worries creep in and fear takes over. My emotions are all over the place and I stress over whether or not we will make the right decision. I run over and over the 'what ifs' in my head.

Sometimes I feel that it would be easier if we could have our prayers answered with an audible voice, or a text message from God. We'd just ask Him, "What should I do?" and *poof* He would answer instantly. But it doesn't work like that. God gave us the gift of 'free will' and the gift of intelligence to aid us with the decision making process and to help us make choices. 



You can't make decisions based on your feelings. This much I know. But you can't live suppressing them either. Fear, sadness, failure - they are all part of our God given emotions that need to be expressed. I find giving voice to these emotions clears the mind and makes for better decision making.

Yesterday I cried sobbed out of deep sadness for the need for change to happen in our family. I wrestled with my fears and feelings of failure. I was a mess. Once I let the emotions out though, I was able to think constructively and my spirit was open to His whisper in my heart.

Last night my husband voiced his opinion on what direction our family should take, and it was the same opinion I had been sensing inside. And so soon change will take place in our family. A new direction. I have peace that this is the right change for us, but change and the unknown is always scary.

Please pray for us as a family.


Still taking lessons from the King,





14 comments:

  1. love you. praying.
    still in bed..sick as anything.
    i have plenty "time" to pray right now.
    x

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    1. Oh I hate that you are sick in bed :(
      Prayers for you my precious friend.
      Thank you for praying for me too. Love you xoxoxo

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  2. I'm headed for big changes too, changes that will probably decrease my online activity by a lot...I don't really like change, like you say it is unknown and can be scary...oh well...Jesus will be with me through it all, it'll be good, :D

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    1. Change is never easy is it Susan?! Thankfully we don't have to do it alone.

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  3. Well be storming heaven for you babe.
    Love that our precious Jesus already knows the outcome for your gorgeous family,
    and that He is with you all the way.
    Love you xxx

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    1. Thank you beautiful girl! He sure does know the outcome and is with me all the way. I love you my friend xoxoxoxoxo

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  4. Prayers being sent your way. In my Shambhala training, we contemplated "Everything is impermanent." So hard to accept that. Like you, I was a "what if" queen. Now I'm more able (sometimes!) to see how things unfold. I hope that all goes well for you and your family.

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  5. Praying for you beautiful Jo. 'You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you.' - Isaiah 26:3 (NLT) xxx

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    1. Love that scripture. Thanks for sharing it gorgeous girl, and for your prayers.xo

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  6. Dear Jo, I can hear your cry in your words. It's wonderful that we can put our trust in Jesus and His love and know that He cares for us and he will lead and guide us into all truth. I've prayed for you this morning that you will sense the Holy Spirits comfort and for the right school for your boys to go to! Emmanuel - God is with us. Lot's of love xxx

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    1. Thank you Sarah. He knows exactly what is best for my boys. xo

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