Change is coming to our family. It may be temporary. It may be permanent. I'm not sure. But I am sure that something has to change.
Making a huge decision that will effect the whole family is never easy. My husband deals with the decision making process very differently to myself. He likes to take his time and methodically think things through logically. Which drives me crazy.
I, on the other hand, lay awake at night-unable to switch my brain off, and go over every possible scenario. Worries creep in and fear takes over. My emotions are all over the place and I stress over whether or not we will make the right decision. I run over and over the 'what ifs' in my head.
Sometimes I feel that it would be easier if we could have our prayers answered with an audible voice, or a text message from God. We'd just ask Him, "What should I do?" and *poof* He would answer instantly. But it doesn't work like that. God gave us the gift of 'free will' and the gift of intelligence to aid us with the decision making process and to help us make choices.
You can't make decisions based on your feelings. This much I know. But you can't live suppressing them either. Fear, sadness, failure - they are all part of our God given emotions that need to be expressed. I find giving voice to these emotions clears the mind and makes for better decision making.
Last night my husband voiced his opinion on what direction our family should take, and it was the same opinion I had been sensing inside. And so soon change will take place in our family. A new direction. I have peace that this is the right change for us, but change and the unknown is always scary.
Please pray for us as a family.
Still taking lessons from the King,