Monday, 11 June 2012

I will unsubscribe from trying too hard to please people

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I know, I know.
I shouldn't let it get to me, but I am only human after all.
Over the past fortnight I have had 4 people unsubscribe from  my email list.
And although I know in my head, I shouldn't let it worry me, it does sting a little bit.
It's my own fault really. I have been so up and down with my blogging as of late, I would probably unsubscribe from my blog too!!

But at the same time, it's a good check point for me on my motivation behind blogging. I started blogging back in 2008 out of obedience to Him. I was struggling with depression and when I creid out to Him to save me from the darkness, He responded by asking me to do 3 things:

1. Write (so I started a blog)
2. Homeschool my boys (Crazy I know, right?)
3. Trust Him with my healing from depresssion (I weaned myself off the anti-depressants and trusted Him.)

And so I did.

Over the years. my blog has evolved and morphed.  It has changed and so have I. I discovered I had a gift for writing and have been published in magazines and featured on other blogs. My followers on google friend connect jumped and so did the subscriptions to receive my blog posts via email. When this happened, I started blogging for an audience. My writing became forced and un-natural. I got caught up with the need to please people. I felt that if I didn't give the people what they wanted, they would un-follow, unsubscribe. (And it's true, they do!)

When I first started blogging, I was transparent with my struggles and victories. I was grateful for the few comments I received, at one stage I was not satisfied unless I had many comments. The problem with blogging for an audience though, is the audience is fickle. One day they love you, he next they have moved on-looking for the next best thing. That's the nature of blogging.

I hate that somewhere deep inside me I have the need for approval. I need people to like me. And guess what? Not everyone is going to like me. In January I decided that I would stop writing for an audience, and write from the heart. This was so liberating for me and stopped the writer's block that I was plagued with.

I have been asking Him to show me why I struggle so much with being addicted to social media. When I received an email this morning telling me that I had 2 people that had unsubsribed from my blog email list, I realised that I was addicted to social media because I want people to like me, to validate me. But their validation will never satisfy my soul. Only His validation satisfies my soul.

I will unsubscribe from trying too hard to please people.
I will unsubscribe from posting things to get a like or a comment, or a RT on social media.
I will unsubscribe from looking for comments on my blog.
I will unsubscribe from looking at numbers of followers.

Out of obedience to Him I will write.
You may like what I write or you may not.
But if He can use my writing to touch a person and change a life, then I am happy.

I will write for an audience of One. I will write for my King.

I will subscribe to His Word.
I will subscribe to His grace.
I will subscribe to His mercy.
I will subscribe to His love.



Still taking lessons from the King,











16 comments:

  1. Good on you Jo! Been praying for you too.
    Big hug being sent your way.

    Xo

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    1. Rosemary,
      Your prayers are being heard and answered. I can feel it in my spirit. Thank you so much for them. I appreciate them more than you know. xo

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  2. Are you reading my thoughts ?? I was just thinking these thoughts too :o( Good to know I'm not on this journey on my own and neither am I unique in my struggle for a 'place' I guess it's roots go right back down to 'Who am I?'

    Blessings Jo. Look forward to more writing from the heart.

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    1. Ah Chareen,
      We are two peas in a pod aren't we? I am so glad to be journeying with you. xo

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  3. I know what you mean about this. I also long to live my life for an audience of ONE. His smile should be my longing. His voice should be what I breathe in and out all day. His plans, his will--my delight.
    I pray for confidence in Christ all the time. I have this when I am about his business, in his word, abiding. I do get sidetracked and quickly spiral down when I look away from Him. I must 'cast down' my thoughts and 'take captive' His all the time. It's a battle of the mind.
    I think your idea to write for and to him is awesome. Keep it up. You are one of my heroes and God's voice, or His working through you has blessed me many times!

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    1. I get so easily distracted Pam!!!
      I always am blessed by your comments and your encouragement. xo

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  4. I know exactly what you mean!
    I constantly choose to "unsubscribe" to being on the list of cool bloggers.
    I have to write for God, or it doesn't satisfy.
    And as usual, I love your openness and honesty - it brings liberty to my spirit, and I'm sure I am not the only one to feel that way.
    Keep writing for Him, and He will always use it to touch someone's life!

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  5. Maybe one of the unsubs was me from my work email, I have a colleague looking after things while I am off for 6 weeks and tried to streamline things a bit for her before I left ...

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    1. Maybe..and that's OK. I unsubscribe from time to time. It was just good to keep my motivation behind blogging in check. xo

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  6. Love you mega muchly!!!
    Best.
    Love this post.
    xxx

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  7. Hi Jo!! Another great, heartfelt post! I wish I knew HOW to subscribe...hehe, I keep subscribing and never get any emails! Maybe its because I have a hotmail account... Oh well, I love to check in at my leisure anyway. Good on you for writing for Him and remembering this even when the ego creeps in...when doesn't the ego creep in!?! really!! You encourage me so much with your honesty! xxoo

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    1. Hey lovely! You always encourage me with your comments. Thank you.

      When you subscribe to get my blog posts in your email inbox, you receive an email, You need to open the email and click on the link to confirm the subscription. Otherwise it remains unverified, and you won't receive the email.

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