I became pregnant again in 2004 and gave birth by cesarean section in 2005 to my second son. I was diagnosed with post natal depression in 2005 and was on anti-depressants for 3 years. 2006 saw me pregnant again resulting another cesarean section in 2007 with the birth of my third son. After the birth, my hormones have never been the same, experiencing severe PMT twice a month and heavier than usual periods. My body had been through a lot in 6 years.
In 2008, I was enveloped in a sea of darkness emotionally, was physically drained, felt far away from God, and had 3 boys-4 years and under to look after. I decided to work on all 3 parts of me - body, soul and spirit. I knew that if I was going to overcome depression, I would need a holistic approach, as all are intertwined and effect each other.
For my soul, I cried out to God and journalled and blogged. As I did, He revealed areas that had been left undealt with and I recieved much healing in my soul. For my spirit, I asked God to reveal Himself to me like He did when I was first born-again and He did - I experienced revelation after revelation of His love for me as I read His Word. I spent time choosing to worship Him in my brokeness because of who He was, not what He could do for me. My breakthrough came a year later when I felt the depression leave, never to return.
At the same time, I started looking at my diet and made some changes. I cut out additives and preservatives and sugar as much as I could and switched to wholemeal flour. I switched from pasteurised milk to unpasteurised milk, and started to eat as natural as I could, as God intended us to eat. After finding very little help from my General Practitioner, an Endocrinologist and a Gynecologist, I consulted 2 different naturopaths for my low energy levels but felt that they all treated me generally and not specifically.
Over the last 3 years, people have laid hands on me and prayed that God would heal me. I have prayed that God would heal me. I experienced disappointment and frustration over and over again that I didn't receive my healing instantly. On my journey to good health over the last few years I realised that at times I was holding onto the promises of God rather than to God himself. Instead of clinging to Him, I clung to the promises of healing in His Word. I wanted my health to be healed in a moment. I was tired of the journey and quite frankly, impatient with how long my body was taking to heal. But I have come to realise that God is sovereign, and if He chooses to heal me through natural therapies or medicines rather than heal me in an instant, than I need to be OK with that. His ways are not my ways.
After feeling like I had tried 'everything under the sun' in medical and natural therapy world, at the beginning of this year I decided to see a nutritionist. I had a sense that this was the last piece in the puzzle for my healing. The nutritionist took a live blood sample and examined it under the microscope while I was there. I discovered that I was deficient in all of the major minerals and nutrients our bodies need to function. Basically, I was out of fuel. He sent me home with a bunch of supplements and instructions to rest more, and not to add anything else to my hectic life, once I started to feel more energetic. I decided to give up my beloved coffee to give my body the best opportunity to heal.
At the 6 months mark, I was beginning to think that I was wasting my money with the supplements. It felt like I wasn't feeling any better. But I was wrong. When I actually sat down and thought, I remembered how I would feel like I needed a nap mid afternoon everyday. I no longer felt like that. I felt a little tired in the afternoon, but after sitting down with a cup of tea, I could still carry on. I couldn't do that before. So I persevered. My energy levels continued to improve. At the 9 month mark, I was able to reduce the amount of supplements I was on. After being off coffee for 6 months, I have recently reintroduced my old friend in the mornings again, with my nutritionist's blessing. I needed the energy boost to get going in the morning. I am limiting myself to one cup of coffee only, as I am fully aware of its addictive properties.
Right now, my body is healing. God is healing me. Perhaps God chose not to heal me instantly because I have learned so much along the way. I don't know. It doesn't matter. I still believe that He does heal, and that it is different for everybody. Some are healed instantly, for others it is a journey, and then others still are healed on the other side of Eternity.
I have learned that a gluten intolerance can cause mood swings. I had noticed my calm, placid son become an angry aggressive boy who was prone to tantrums. It was very uncharacteristic for him, but I put it down to a testosterone spike or a phase he was going through, and waited for it to pass. It didn't. Then it dawned on me that the mood swings started when I took the boys off eggs for breakfast every morning and replaced it with cereal. The 3 boys and I have been gluten free for 2 weeks now and guess what? My calm, placid boy has returned. Guess what else? My severe PMT has disappeared and my body is feeling better.
My journey towards healing my body is continuing. It has been long and tiresome and has taken trial and error to see what works and doesn't work for me. But I am improving everyday. I have acknowledged that some of the damage done to my body has been through my own neglect. There were years where I was ignorant to the harm that most packaged foods packed full of sugar, additives and preservatives was doing to my body. I had no idea how important rest was and powered on 'full steam ahead' not realising the damage I was doing to my body. So I guess I am undoing years or damage that I unknowingly did to my body. It took years to arrive at this place, and it could take years to reverse the damage. But I know that I am on the right track. I continue to seek His face and counsel, and feel Him drop ideas into my spirit, as He continues to guide me on my journey towards healing my body.
Still taking lessons from the King,
PS - Have a read of this. I wrote this 2 years ago on my healing journey- I am an Overcomer (Aug 2009)