Thursday, 16 June 2011

His heart beating with mine



My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”And my heart responds,
“Lord, I am coming.” ~ Psalm 27:8


I hear His whisper throughout the day, "Come and talk with me." And I respond, "I am way too busy." But really I am avoiding Him, knowing that there are hurts He wants to deal with in my heart. I am reluctant to go there. It's too painful and besides....it was so long ago. That was at a time when I was young and immature. I am a grown up now. But He doesn't give up.

I feel His heartbeat as the bass guitar and drums vibrate through my body as I worship, when I gather with other Believers on a Sunday. He says to me, "Do you feel that beat through your body? That is how close I am to you. I long for My heart to beat in sync with yours."

And tears run down my cheeks and I  think of my friend who shared how the same beat that once was doom is now life

trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge. ~Psalm 62:8

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart;
he is mine forever. ~Psalm 73:26

For I am poor and needy, and my heart is full of pain.~Psalm 109:22



And then it happens, triggers of painful memories flood my heart and wounds are reopened. I thought I had patched the wounds up pretty well, but my dressings don't hold. I hear His whisper again, "Come and talk with me.” And I respond "Lord I am coming."

Tears, so many tears.
Pain, so much pain.
I can't breathe.
Stop. I can't take it.
It hurts too much.
I want to run away.
It's too much.
I stay....I allow the tears to come.

He whispers, "It's not fair. What happened to you is not fair."
I sense His heart.
I sense that He never wanted me to experience all that pain.
I sense His sorrow over what had happened decades ago.
I sense the freedom to allow myself to feel that an injustice had been done to me, and that I wasn't being over-sensitive or melodramatic.
I sense His heart beating with mine as the tears flow. Healing tears.
I sense His love.


I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong.  And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. ~Ephesians 3:16-19




This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence:  If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.~1 John 3:19-20



You have captured my heart, my treasure, my bride. ~Song of Solomon 4:9


Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm. For love is as strong as death,
its jealousy as enduring as the grave. ~Song of Solomon 8:6


 I hear Him whisper, "I'm not going anywhere. I will never abandon you or reject you. I am so madly and deeply in love with you."  He sings over me a sweet song as I lay my head down in His lap in my mind's eye, and as I sob, He gently strokes my hair.



Still taking lessons from the King,




13 comments:

  1. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
    -Romans 8:38-39

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  2. It's such a comfort to know that He is always there ready and waiting to comfort us in our pain. It doesn't matter if we've come to Him time and time before for the same ache...He will hold us every time. He will never let us go.

    Blessings, Joan

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  3. He loves us, oh how he loves us, oh, how he loves us, ohhh how he loooves us.

    Doesn't your heart just sing after encounters like this. In that place where everything seems broken, your heart begins to beat as one with Jesus. Beautiful post my friend.

    PS. Your family look so gorgeous in the title picture :)

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  4. Great post Jo! Psalm 27:8...The Lord has been drawing me back to that very scripture over and over again. It's beautiful. You said in your post exactly what I had been feeling for a long time. Memories are strong. But GOD is so much stronger!!

    God bless you
    Chelle

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  5. LOVE the new picture in your header:) may He continue to lead you beside still waters and restore your soul!

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  6. And the healing will overflow -throughout your life and into others!
    xoxoxox

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  7. See I told you I missed your writing for a reason. LOVE this! I know exactly what you are speaking of. It is a hard journey but we will come out the other side.

    I am reminded of John Bevere's message the Fire of God. Through the complete healing, and access to our hearts, the fire starts to build like a furnace and mighty works of God come from that. Great things to come.

    Dream big. ;)

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  8. Beautiful...laying in his lap. I think I'll go there too. :)

    I love the new photo! Lovely!

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  9. Being comforted in God's arms is the best ever place to be, so much love there, so much peace, and He is so gentle! Love your transparent heart precious Jo and LOVE the new family pic up the top! :-)

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  10. How amazing! I totally had a similar experience today as well. Thank you for sharing those Scriptures... they were so timely for my heart.

    God has brought me a new favorite verse- Psalm 62:8. When I saw you had written it down, I simply had to smile.

    He is so faithful.

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  11. I love the scripture you used of Ephesians 3:16-19 God really showed me some things that He has been speaking to me about this week. About making the choice to tap the divine interface between heaven and earth everyday. That it is a daily choice of determination, initiative and exercise of strength to follow Him. Just as the scripture says I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. That is what God has for me everyday, in every situation I face. He is sitting there waiting for me to ask for His unlimited resources so that I can live here on earth while being resourced from another realm.

    Also thank you Nicole for reminding me how powerful that song is. I stumbled upon it on a friends blog when she linked it up to a post of hers and I know the power that had to break lies and bondage off my life.
    I realised tonight that I had never shared it with my husband, probably out of the embarrassment that I break down when I hear it. But it is that love of Eph 3:18, how wide, long. high, deep.

    Oh how He loves us! He loves us with our baggage and our brokenness. He loves us with our attitudes and wrong hegemons. He loves us enough to look for that one exception like Noah among an entire world that was evil. Everyday I am blown away by how much more of His love He reveals to me.

    Thank you Jo for showing me my fathers heart tonight. xx

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  12. Thank you for coming by my blog. I too know that the only way I got through my daughters stillbirth was by the grace of God. Writing has been my healing...I have just published my first book and by the grace of God, I pray others can read my story and see the healing of Christ throughout our darkest moments.

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Jo Princess Warrior xo