There is usually a casualty of depression that doesn't get much of a mention.You see, while I may have been the one suffering from depression, there was one that suffered along with me. Depression is all consuming and has a ripple effect on everyone you come in contact with while in the darkness. Many friends didn't understand what I was going through and left my side during that time. Other friends I chased away for fear they would eventually leave anyway, after finding out about the darkness that I lived in.
But there was one who was there every step of the way. He may not have understood exactly what I was going through, but he stayed with me as I groped my way in the dark, desperately trying to find a way out. This man could not save me from the darkness, there was another that would do that - Jesus. But this man held my hand all the way through it. He is my husband and best friend - Mighty Prince Warrior. Without him, I would not have survived.
On our wedding day, Mighty Prince Warrior could never have imagined what lay ahead for his wife. As he answered the pastor this question with "I do":
Do you take this woman to be your wedded wife? Do you promise to love her, comfort her, honour her and keep her in sickness and in health; and forsaking others, keep yourself only unto her, so long as you both shall live?He could not have known that his bride would suffer depression when he said these Wedding Vows:
I take you to be my beloved wife. I promise from this day on to love you, support you, uphold you and cherish you. As your best friend I will be by your side through whatever joy or trial we face. I here and now, give you everything of myself. I promise to be all God has destined me to be as your husband. By the power of the Holy Spirit, I will fulfill these vows all the days of my life, in Jesus ' name.Living with depression is tough. But living with someone with depression is a tough road to travel, if not tougher than going through the depression yourself. Yes. In my opinion, Mighty Prince Warrior has walked a very different road to what I had when depression reared its ugly head. In some ways, a harder road. For him, it would have been a very lonely road.
Imagine watching the one you love change right before your eyes from a confident, fun-loving, happy go-lucky person to a withdrawn, sad, overwhelmed mess. Imagine all your dreams of what being a husband and a father would look like being thrown out the window, and replaced with the reality that you don't know what mood your wife and mother of your children will be in from day to day. Imagine not being able to reason with your wife because you are afraid she may burst into tears and cry uncontrollably. Imagine not knowing when she might yell at you for the smallest thing. Imagine your wife saying to you, "You may as well leave me as I can't see how this marriage will ever work out," time and time again.
I honestly can't believe how blessed I am to have a man that loved me, supported me, and stayed by my side through this horrific trial. There were days when he didn't know how what to do. All he wanted was for his wife to be back to normal. All he wanted was the depression to go away. All he wanted was his bride back.
I am sure there were times when Mighty Prince Warrior would have liked to have called it quits. It would have been tempting. It's a heavy burden for anyone to carry. But he didn't. Being a man of his word, he fulfilled his wedding vows and stayed by my side. And I am so grateful that he did. There is no other man that I want to share my life with than Mighty Prince Warrior. My words just don't do justice what how amazing he really is.
He is fulfilling the role a husband has in Ephesians 5:25-33:
25 Husbands, love your wives as Christ loved the church and gave himself for it26 to make it belong to God. Christ used the word to make the church clean by washing it with water.27 He died so that he could give the church to himself like a bride in all her beauty. He died so that the church could be pure and without fault, with no evil or sin or any other wrong thing in it.28 In the same way, husbands should love their wives as they love their own bodies. The man who loves his wife loves himself.29 No one ever hates his own body, but feeds and takes care of it. And that is what Christ does for the church,30 because we are parts of his body.31 The Scripture says, "So a man will leave his father and mother and be united with his wife, and the two will become one body."32 That secret is very important—I am talking about Christ and the church.33 But each one of you must love his wife as he loves himself, and a wife must respect her husband.What an amazing man I have to love me as he loves himself. I must be the most blessed woman on earth. He has shown me love as Christ showed love for us.
Mighty Prince Warrior - you are my hero. You have loved me unconditionally. You have shown me grace, You have loved me when I was unlovable. You are such a great role model to our boy warriors.You bring out the best in me. I am honoured to be your wife. I love you. xoStill taking lessons from the King,