Wednesday, 21 July 2010

Waking up from a sleep

by Suzana85

 Then he said, “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep, but now I will go and wake him up.”  ~John 11:11

I feel like I have been asleep for years and have just been woken up. Everything I thought was the truth has been challenged. What I thought was reality was but a dream. I had been in chains, bound to incorrect doctrine and way of thinking for years - but I was unaware. And then my King came to me and woke me up.

He showed me His heart towards me. He showed me that I don't have to do anything to earn His love. He showed me that I don't have to strive any more - I just have to be me.

He showed me that He is love. He showed me that I am His. He showed me that He loves me despite my mess and I don't have to weigh myself down with self-improvement regimes.

Lately it has been murky as I sort through what is the truth and what was part of the slumber I was in. Things are becoming clearer as I wade through the murky water. I no longer take at face value what people claim to be the truth. Everyone has their own journey and I am learning that as I listen to His Spirit within me, and not other people's experiences and views, clarity comes.

It has been a time of turmoil within as I learn to live in my new nature. But answers are coming. I am learning to discern His voice within me. Sometimes I try to go back to sleep as it is comfortable and familiar.But He keeps me awake- not allowing me to go back to the place that once held me bound.

I am learning to allow myself to feel hurt, but not to let the hurt linger and grow roots within. I am learning to trust in Him. I am learning that it is OK to feel. I am learning to be authentic. I never want to go back to my slumber. I am now awake and seeing things as they should be.

Still taking lessons from the King,



13 comments:

  1. Arise! Awake beloved princess! I love that word AUTHENTIC that is MY word right now.... it speaks of such a transparency that is so deep. Loved your post, I feel your heart xxx

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  2. Jo, I left a comment, but my internet blitzed out. It didn't appear to post, so I will try again.

    Thank you for being so refreshingly honest.

    I wrote a post recently concerning the many various beliefs and opinions you hear concerning the Truth, all claiming to have the best grip on what God actually means. It makes my head swim!! For me, I only want what the Holy Spirit illuminates to me, whether that be by sermons, people, or whoever He uses... just so long as it comes from Him.

    How wonderful that He loves us unconditionally, as He guides us to maturity in Him. All we need to do is trust Him and follow Him wholeheartedly. His love is so amazing...

    I enjoyed this post tonight... thank you!

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  3. Thank you Jo Princes Warrior, a wonderful lesson from King.

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  4. My Oh My, Jo...
    I feel like I've been woken up by the Holy Spirit too. Lots of things I once believed have been challenged. I'm so thankful that He never left me sleeping.
    Big Hugs to you :)

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  5. A good message for all of us! The things we hear and see should be weighed with the Still Small Voice within us...and then checked with God's Word. He will show us the truth when we come to Him earnestly seeking it.

    Living for Him, Joan

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  6. Hi Princess - I love this post. I think we all struggle with sometimes falling asleep and diconnecting from the world. Which is such a dangerous place to live in, since in darkness that is where we find the enemy full force at work. Just early this week, I was battling with that and I quickly snapped out of it without giving the enemy any room to get me stuck in that dark place. Love this post. Thanks for being so authentic and true to you and us. Love you lots

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  7. It never ceases to amaze me how others in a position of spiritual authority can twist God's Word and turn them into enslaving rules and regulations.

    Reading God's Word for ourselves and developing a relationship with Christ-not a "religion" should be the emphasis of every pastor.

    This post has so much truth. I particularly liked:
    "Sometimes I try to go back to sleep as it is comfortable and familiar.But He keeps me awake- not allowing me to go back to the place that once held me bound."

    Prison walls can make us feel safe, but there is no life in them! Thank you Jo!

    Much Love in Christ,

    Michelle

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  8. I love this - it's is a new path and so easy to slip back to an old one but so worth staying with your new found truth

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  9. This stuck out at me: "I am learning that it is OK to feel." So....true!
    Thanks for this post, you are on a great journey! He loves you very much:)

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  10. "He showed me His heart towards me. He showed me that I don't have to do anything to earn His love. He showed me that I don't have to strive any more - I just have to be me.

    He showed me that He is love. He showed me that I am His. He showed me that He loves me despite my mess and I don't have to weigh myself down with self-improvement regimes."

    I don't have to perform or produce...He just wants me to love Him with all of my heart and to put my hope and trust and faith in His amazing, unfailing love.

    Because He loves me. And you. And everybody in the whole world like that.

    I don't even have to lose ten pounds either!

    Incidently, sweet girl, I'm thinking that it's the other way around...you're the one who's in my head.

    Sweet dreams.

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  11. I can identify with so much here. ..Things Jesus has been showing me lately, in a subtle way, he's been working, changing my thought patterns and opening my heart.

    I always love coming here!

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  12. I've been in this place for the past year...feeling the some of the scales have fallen from my eyes....thankful that God doesn't leave us where we are at!!

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  13. Missing you dear. Just stopped by to say hello. Love you lots

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I appreciate you taking the time to comment.

Love,
Jo Princess Warrior xo