I gaze at Courageous Boy Warrior in wonder, fascinated by this incredible boy I have been entrusted with. I grab his face in my hands and say to him, "You are amazing. Do you know that?".
He glances at me for a moment and then continues to play with the toy that he had been playing with and sighs, "Yeah, I know."
"But do you really know how amazing you are?", I ask.
"Yes Mum." he answers very matter-of-factly, "Everyone is amazing." And continued on with his game.
I couldn't get his answer out of his head. He was right. Everyone is amazing. But it was his confidence that he knew he was amazing that touched me so. I hope that he always knows how amazing he is.
On Sunday the pastor shared how her daughters love to look at themselves in the mirror. They loved what they saw and thought the reflection of themselves was beautiful. I remembered a time when I was a child when I could look in the mirror and I liked what I saw. I
thought knew I was beautiful. I don't remember thinking "Am I beautiful?" I just knew that I was.
But somewhere in my childhood I started to look in the mirror and I saw my imperfections. I no longer knew that I was beautiful. I started to ask the question, "Am I beautiful?" and the answer I received from so many voices was, "No. You are not beautiful. see that person over there- they are beautiful and you will never be like them." And I believed the lie.
I asked my family, "Am I beautiful?" and they answered, "Stop being so vain."
I asked my friends, "Am I beautiful?" and they answered, "What a show off. You are so up yourself."
I asked men, "Am I beautiful? and they answered, "You're OK. But not as beautiful as her."
I asked women, "Am I beautiful?" and they laughed at me and said, "You're kidding me right?"
The problem was I was asking the right question, but to the wrong people. It wasn't until I took my question to my King and He answered, "My darling, everything about you is beautiful, and there is nothing at all wrong with you", that I could start to look in the mirror and believe that I was beautiful.
It has taken me a few years since this question was first answered by God for me to believe that I am beautiful. But I can now look in the mirror and I think, "you really are beautiful!"
I am made in His image.
My darling, everything about you is beautiful,
and there is nothing at all wrong with you.
My sister, my bride, you have thrilled my heart;
you have thrilled my heart
with a glance of your eyes,
with one sparkle from your necklace.
~Song of Solomon 4:7,9~
Still taking lessons from the King,
This post appeared in Enhance Magazine Summer 10/11 edition