Thursday, 21 January 2010

Not my will, but Yours be done


It's the strangest thing....I thought I had 2010 planned out until God stepped in. Mighty Prince Warrior and I have been discussing during the summer holidays schooling arragements for Leader Boy Warrior. I have been homeschooling him for Prep and grade 1, and I was happy to continue doing that. We also discussed the option of sending him to a local Christian school which we have heard outstounding reports about from many families in our church, but had a long waiting list to get into.

Everytime I thought of sending Leader Boy Warrior to school, fear gripped my heart. What if he is bullied? What if he hates it? What if his attitude changes? What if our relationship changes? What is he makes poor friend choices? What if? What if? What if? So many fears. Fear had a hold of me. So, letting my fear govern me, I decided to continue homeschooling for 2010.

While we were away for a family min-break, I was taking an indulgence - a bubble bath! I asked the Lord, "What do you want me to do with the boys? Tell me and I'll do it." I felt a gentle whisper, "Send Leader Boy Warrior to school, but continue to homeschool Courageous Boy Warrior." The answer suprised me, so  I told myself it must have been my own thoughts. After all, I was tired....

I forgot all about the incident in the bath tub and continued fot the next few weeks, preparing what I would be teaching when school recommenced at the end of Januray. I had decided that I would get involved with one of the local homeschool groups so that Leader Boy Warrior had an opportunity to make some friends. The homeschool train was going full steam ahead.

This Monday, I woke up and an idea came into my head to ring the school and see if there was any places for Leader Boy Warrior. I half laughed as school started next Wednesday and the likeslihood of there being any places at this late date was very slim. I was reminded of the 'bathtub incident' and said "OK! If there is a place for Leader Boy Warrior, and not for Courageous Boy Warrior, then I will know that I was hearing the Holy Spirit and not just own thoughts." I rang the school expecting there to be no places (the school has large waiting lists). To my suprise, there was a place for grade 2, but not Prep.

After I got over the initial shock, I explained it all to Mighty Prince Warrior. He agreed that we should enroll Leader Boy Warrior. So I downloaded an application form, packed the Boy Warriors in the car, and drove to the school. I cried on the way there. I cried when I left there. But despite my sadness, I felt a calm in my Spirit, knowing that I was obeying Him who created Leader Boy Warrior and knew what was best for him. After all, although they are my children, they are His children first and He knows what is best for them.

I attended an interview and Leader Boy Warrior has an assessment test this afternoon to see where he is at with his english and maths. Funny, this was not how I had planned my week to go. Leader Boy Warrior is excited about going to school and I'm sure he will adjust to school just fine. I however may take a little time adjusting to not having Leader Boy Warrior home, packing lunches, doing the school drop off and pick up. It will be a huge change for me.

Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don't try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he's the one who will keep you on track.
PROVERBS 3:5-5 (The Message)
 
Still taking lessons from the King,
 






4 comments:

  1. Obedience is always the best path, good on you for stepping out in faith even though it's different to what you had planned. :-)

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  2. I am so pleased that you have heard clearly... enjoyed a confirmation... and are stepping forward in obedience even as you wipe tears from your eyes. "I know the plans for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jer. 29:11) To know that you are proceeding under His direction! - He will do abundantly more than you ask or imagine! Homeschooling... life... such exciting and scary circumstances in which to take a deep breath and trust Him as he directs our paths. I am so very pleased for you!

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  3. thank you for your encouragement lovely ladies!! xo

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  4. Love your heart Jo... and how you follow....

    Thanks for stopping by the blog and your sweet words left. I always love your visits!

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