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I have been feeling really exhausted lately. My husband works from home, and has done so for the last 6 years and I homeshool my 3 boys. So life is very full to say the least. I have been feeling so discouraged. We are on our Summer break and due to start back at school in a few weeks. The thought of adding school work to my already long list of 'things to do' filled me with dread. I'd researched local schools and was considering sending the boys to school.
In desperation I emailed a friend across the sea in the US asking her to pray for me. She promised that she would and get back to me. In the meantime, I decided the boys wanted to swim in the pool. So I took my bible, and sat by the pool watching the boys swim. I cried out to Him. I said, "Lord, I am so discouraged! I NEED to hear from you today in your Word." I opened His Word and the page fell open to Song of Songs. I read in Song of Songs 2:10-14 (NLT):
10 My lover said to me,
“Rise up, my darling!
Come away with me, my fair one!
11 Look, the winter is past,
and the rains are over and gone.
12 The flowers are springing up,
the season of singing birds has come,
and the cooing of turtledoves fills the air.
13 The fig trees are forming young fruit,
and the fragrant grapevines are blossoming.
Rise up, my darling!
Come away with me, my fair one!”
14 My dove is hiding behind the rocks,
behind an outcrop on the cliff.
Let me see your face;
let me hear your voice.
For your voice is pleasant,
and your face is lovely.
I wept. The scripture tenderly touched my heart. My King was talking to me in the most beautiful poetry.
If you have been following my blog, you may have know from what I shared before that I struggled with depression, before the Lord delivered me from it. During the time when I was crying out to Him to deliver me from the depression, I felt Him whisper, "Spring is nearly here." And when I was delivered, it sure did feel like Spring in my Spirit. It was during these times that I became so close with th Lord, because I needed to realy on Him to get through the day.
Well, in reality, things haven't changed. I still need Him to get through the day. But I was trying to do it all on my own and haven't been spending time with Him on a daily basis as I used to in those times of desperation. And that was a huge mistake. Because, I can't do it without Him. No matter how capable I am.
My Lord, through this scripture, was telling me that He missed me, and was calling me to spend time with Him. And I had been 'hiding behind a rock' from Him.
After the boys had a swim, I checked my emails, and my friend form the US had emailed me again. She told me that she was going to meditate on Luke 10:38-40: (and that I should do the same)
38 As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39 Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. 40 But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”
41 But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! 42 There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”
I smiled, thinking that His Spirit knows no boundaries and is able to be everywhere at once.
Still taking lessons from the King,