I have always struggled with having 'quiet time' ever since I learned what it was as a baby Christian. At first I didn't know what to do during my quiet time. And then I felt guilty if I missed out on it on a day. This would turn into weeks, and consumed with guilt, I dare not come near God, sometimes turning into months. I didn't understand that having 'quiet time' was not a requirement for closeness to God. In fact, these days it is rare for me to have 'quiet time.'
I have what I call 'not so quiet' time. I grab a moment here and there with Jesus. Sometimes not opening my mouth at all but meditating on a scripture that I had read that morning, while I pack the dishwasher. I might listen to some worship music over breakfast while with my family and have a song stuck in my head that I hum or sing throughout the day. Sometimes I might not even get to read the Bible all day, but would have spent time with Him. How? Because I have learnt that He is always withe me. I see Him in nature, I see Him in my children, I see Him in my husband, I even see Him in schoolwork. You see, when you are so in love with someone, you see them everywhere!
I have also learned that my King speaks to me all throughout the day. Sometimes a thought might pop into my head and I act on it. Like for example, to ring a particular friend and invite them around for coffee. I think it is my own idea, but half way through coffee I see that my friend needs to hear from God that day and I am able to encourage her. That was God speaking to me. I have learned to act on these thoughts regularly now and see God's hand moving in my life. Sometimes it is only my own thoughts and not His, but over time, I am learning to recognise His voice and differentiate it from my own.
In my busy world of homeschooling, there is often not a lot of 'Me' time. But I have learned to pray continually. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 says: Always be joyful. Pray continually, and give thanks whatever happens. That is what God wants for you in Christ Jesus.
I think I finally know what it means to pray continually, and there is so much more freedom than living under condemnation of not having quiet time.

This hit the spot today. Thank you.
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