Wednesday, 8 April 2009

I'm ok.....really

So, after a scary plunge back into depression last week.....I'm happy to say that I'm ok. There was a reason for it - I had mistakenly stopped taking my thyroid medication for a week. I'm happy to report that after rectifying this, I'm back to my old self again.

It was interesting while I was in the throes of my depressed state, how much the enemy messed with my mind. Doesn't he just like to kick you when you're down? The lies that were going through my thoughts - "See, God didn't really heal you from your depression. You're right back where you started and you'll never get out. You'll have to live with your depression the rest of your life!" and on on and the lies went. God had spoken to me the week before about using my sword and I wrote scriptures out, shouted them out, anything I could to claw my way out of the pit. And you know what, the Word got me out of the pit.

My sister rang me yesterday after reading my last blog entry to see if I was alright. She encouraged me and reminded me to keep using the sword and told me of the revelation she had about sowing in tears and reaping in joy. Here's what the NCV translation says in Psalm 126:5-6:

Those who cry as they plant crops will sing at harvest time. Those who cry as they carry out the seeds will return singing and carrying bundles of grain.

Wow! So all this crying is not fruitless? In fact, it is fruitful. I know that the tears I have sown while overcoming my post natal depression will impact my children and my grandchildren. The fruit that I will see, is my descendants free from depression and the chain broken in my family. I can't wait for that harvest. I believe the fight that I am going through is for generations to come. Depression stops with me. It goes no further.

I also believe that when I overcome my hormone imbalance, that I will be able to hold the hands of other women who suffer with the same problem. After all, how will they know how to overcome it without someone who has been through it themselves? That will be the bundles of grain that I will harvest.

This Princess Warrior was down, but not out. I am rising, lifting my head to the Lord for help and waiting on Him. Psalm 27:13-14 says:

I truly believe I will live to see the Lord's goodness. Wait for the Lord's help. Be strong and brave, and wait for the Lord's help.

Still taking lessons from the King,


9 comments:

  1. So glad to hear you are better, friend....

    Hugs!

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  2. The enemy will use our worldly body to try and defeat our eternity focussed soul that is on the inside. It's all spiritual, but he, the nasty cheat that he is, can't just fight on that level, as he knows that he'll be beaten. And you, my dear friend, you HAVE beaten him and will keep on beating him no matter how hard he tries to get you to fall.

    Also, crying gives you a clearer vision of God. I feel it helps get the guff out of the way so we can then get down to the important stuff with God.

    You are doing amazingly well my dear friend. xoxo

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  3. It's cool to hear you speak of the enemy's attacks because that was what I was wanting to make sure you were taking into consideration. He's a tricky one and I've noticed that it certainly takes me a number of go-arounds before I wise up sometimes. So glad to hear you are feeling right again.

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  4. Hi! I just started following your blog and it's just so cute!!! You have a beautiful family. When I saw that you were from Australia I thought of my godfather who lives over there. They are from Costa Rica like me but when he met his wife, she lived over there so he moved. I'm also reminded of one of my fav magazines Above Rubies who's author is from New Zealand.

    There's a saying that goes like this, "when life get you down look UP" as well as "when life gets you on your knees that the perfect way to start praying" you did just that my friend. Depression is not of God....it's all the enemy trying to break you down a little at a time. BUT we serve a mighty God who's angels fight for us every day, every minute. The Lord has and will continue to redeem you from this spirit of depression and you wil be set free for once and for all!!! God bless you and protect you always! Thanx for sharing<3

    Love, Susan@-}-----

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  5. Hi Jo! I've been thinking about you. I remembered you wrote a post about your son's decision to follow Christ. I too got to see my sons say that they too wanted to make that choice, and like you, I wanted to memorialize it somehow. So I came looking for that post you wrote to get the ideas flowing. I too get bombarded with depression every once in awhile (actually alot these last three years), but He always lifts my head and puts a song in my heart. Even in the depression I sing to Him... He's always faithful to lead me through.

    Thanks for sharing,
    sheila

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  6. Hi! I have an award for you over at my blog! Hope you like it:D

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  7. Delighted to meet you! I found you via the award that you won. So glad I stopped by to meet you. Your story and strength in Him wrapped me in His unconditional love. I too have struggled in my own strength with depression, and rejoicing in the victory that our Abba is giving both of us.

    Blessings from Costa Rica,
    Sarah Dawn

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  8. Oh, my name means Princess! I'll be following along to learn more of how to walk in royalty with you.

    Hugs from this missionary mommy,
    Sarah Dawn

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Jo Princess Warrior xo