I know that it a result of coming off my anti- depressants. I am depleted physically and know that my body has been through a lot in the last week. I was a mess at church today during worship. People were probably assuming that I was being touched by the Lord, and I was. But I was more so crying out of sheer exhaustion and crying in the arms of a wonderful Father who knows what I am going through.
Sometimes today I just want to hide away from everyone...which is difficult when you have 3 little boy warriors that rely on you. I know it won't always be like this because my God has promised to take me to a new land. But it's hard. I feel like the monkey is digging his claws in. Trying to cause me to doubt that I have heard from God to trust him for my healng. Thankfully I am blessed with an amazing Mighty Prince Warrior who is forgiving, gracious and understanding of the symptoms of depression. But I tell you depression - your day as are numbered as God is taking me to a new land - one that is depression-free.
This is what the Lord says:
"In the time of my favour I will answer you, and in the day of salvation I will help you; I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people to restore the land and to reassign its desolate inheritances, to say to the captives,'Come out', and to those in darkness, 'Be free!' They will feed beside the roads and find pasture on every barren hill.
They will never hunger nor thirst, nor will the desert heat or the sun beat upon them. He who has compassion on them will guide them and lead them beside springs of water. I will turn all my mountains into roads, and my highways will be raised up." Isaiah 49:8-11
As a Princess Warrior, I know that I must pick myself up and use my weapon - my sword (the Word of God) and that is exactly what I am doing. Even though sometimes I feel too weak to pick my sword up, I know that He is strong when I am weak!
Still taking lessons from the King,