Wednesday, 22 October 2008

I am angry!

I am angry at the enemy. I have been given a promise from God that he would heal me of my mental health issues and the enemy has shot another fiery dart at me. (Well it's not like him to play fair is it?) I went to my Doctor today for a full check up and was feeling so great as I was well on my way to achieving my goal from the beginning of the year of 'putting Humpty Dumpty back together'.

I have an existing thyroid condition called hypothyroidism which was diagnosed 4 years ago. I was told at the time that it was most probably triggered by pregnancy and childbirth and my thyroid levels would settle back to normal again. Well today the Doctor told me that my hypothyroidism is caused by Hashimoto Disease and that I will have to be on medication all my life. This was not the news I was looking for! What? Never to come off the thyroid medication? I was filthy.....not at the Doctor, but at the enemy.

I have been doing battle for months now and was weary and it now felt like I was being kicked while I was down. At the beginning of worship at our home group tonight this Scripture was read and I know that the Lord gave it as a gift just for me:

Isaiah 55:8-13 The Lord says, "My thoughts are not like your thoughts. Your ways are not like my ways. Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my thoughts are higher than your thoughts.

Rain and snow fall from the sky and don't return without watering the ground. They cause the plants to sprout and grow, making seeds for the farmer and bread for the people.

The same thing is true of the words I speak. They will not return to me empty. They will make the things happen that I want to happen, and they suceed in doing what I send them to do.

So you will go out with joy and be led out in peace. The mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees in the field will clap their hands. Large cypress tress will grow where thornbushes were.

These things will be a reminder of the Lord's promise and this reminder will never be destroyed.

As the words were read out tears fell down my cheeks. I couldn't stop them. My King was reminding me of the promise he had given me about the new land he would take me to, and described it to me in Isaiah in all it's glory. It sounds like such a wonderful place to be and I can't wait to move into the new land.

So now I have another medical condition to fight against, but I also have the promise from my King to heal me and take me to a new land, where I don't have depression and I don't have Hashimoto's Disease.

Still taking lessons from the King,

5 comments:

  1. Oh Jo, my prayers are with you. I read your post on FB from Better Health Channel after we chatted. Our King was telling you in those verses to leave it all to Him; reassurance for your trek down this latest path as a Princess Warrior. He is with you, and so are your family and friends. The enemey does not play fair and he will try anything to take you off your God chosen path. Keep smiling and keep fighting the good fight. Love In Him, Paula :-)

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  2. Isn't He so sweet the way He brings such intimate messages to us right in the midst of a crowd?! We have a song, me and God - and everytime it's sung by the worship leaders at church it's like God is lovingly winking at me to remember His past faithfulness and to remind me that He will never let me down. He is faithful to His promises - and I will pray against the enemy that His promises stay firmly in your sights.

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  3. You hang onto those promises, girl! "Every place on which the sole of your foot treads, I have given it to you...from the wilderness to the great river." Joshua 1:3-4 No matter where our journey takes us, no matter what ground we have to cover to get to the promised land, it has been given to us. We are never given over to it, is is given to us! Praise God! This is FOR you, my friend. He will show Himself magnificent.

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  4. praying with you and standing with you All things are possible with Christ who lives in you.

    It may happen quickly or it may be a long jouney but remember he is with you. Look for the footprints in the tough times:)

    Love you

    Bek

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