Thursday, 9 October 2008

The Battle Begins

I had my last anti-depressant on Saturday and on Sunday, had a restful day as I usually do. Unaware of the horrendous physical side effects my body would endure over the next few days.

Monday morning rolled by and I couldn't get out of bed. This was no usual Mondayitits. My brain felt like it was being zapped. I couldn't focus on small tasks. I felt dizzy when I stood up and was exhausted by 9.30am. This continued throughout the day and I couldn't function adequately. I also felt nauseous with an insatiable appetite. My world was spinning out of control and I called my sister as I was too weak. I knew that she would give me something that I could hold onto in the Word. Which was exactly what I needed. After I talked to my sister and a good cry, I felt a little better. But the physical symptoms were debilitating.

I googled effexor withdrawals and had to stop reading as there was horror story after horror story. I came across a website that recommended Omega3, Vitamin B complex and carrots as a way of combatting the side effects. My sister also sent me a scripture that I clung on to:

Psalm 27: 13-14 - I would have fainted unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LOrd in the land of the living. Wait in faith on the Lord: be of good courage, and He will strengthen your heart: wait, I say on the Lord.

This scripture was straight from the throne room as I had been meditating on another scripture in preparation for my coming off my medication. A promise form my King.

The next day my sister sent me this cute message on my phone:

Time for your medication - your new daily dose for today is - Psalm 138:8 The Lord will perfect that which concerns me: Your mercy, O Lord endures forever: forsake not the work of Your hands. I love you xx

My beautiful mother came over and folded washing, hung out washing and looked after the house. A girl always needs her Mum.

I am still struggling with side effects, but I know that God will finish what He has started. I can see how people would easily give-up and go back on the anti-depressants as the withdrawals are horrendous. I am getting there day by day. And I know that it won't always be like this. I am keeping my eye on the prize. God has promised to bring me to a new land, one that I have never known. And I am looking forward to living in that land, depression free.

Still taking lessons from the King,


  1. Hi Jo, my contribution to your recovery is...

    "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.
    He alone is my rock and my salvation;
    he is my fortress, I will never be shaken." - Pslam 62:1-2

    I hope that through the strength He is giving you, and from the love and support of your family, that the remainder of your recovery time is gentle on you.

    I went on anti-depressants nearly 3 years ago and lasted 2 days. The side effects from just taking the first 2 pills was horrific so I decided that I could not take them. I went to a naturopath instead who helped me no end.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend, and brave warrior princess! Love In Him, Paula :-)

  2. Whoops, it might help if I could spell "Psalm"...hmmm. :-)

  3. Jo, you and I have a ton in common besides the fact we live on different continents. Even our blogs are similar. I am assuming your husband is a pastor? Thanks for cking in on my blog and commenting. I would love to keep up with your blog as well.


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