That was 7 1/2 years ago and only now God has opened my eyes to what that 'monkey on my back' is. My family has a history of mental health issues. After my second child I suffered Post-Natal Depression and was prescribed anti-depressions which were a God-send. I have been on the medication for 3 years and even continued through a pregnancy and birth of my third son. I am now at a point where I am cutting back to wean myself off the anti-depressants.
I am struggling physically and mentally but have a sense to stand strong and persevere. It was no coincidence that God gave me a scripture early on in my Christian walk which I have drawn strength form time and time again:
Don't be afraid, because I am with you. Don't be intimidated; I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will support you with my victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10 (Italics mine)
I know that the enemy will not let go easily. I have a battle ahead of me. This 'monkey on my back' has been there a while and is quite comfortable. It's not going to react kindly to being told to go. My son's scripture memory verse form Children's Church is:
But thanks be to God who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57
Please stand with me as I prepare for battle and break the generational depression in life.
Still taking lessons from the King,