The Monkey on my Back

Before I was married, the Pastor that was to marry us asked if the 3 of us could fast as he felt that I had a 'monkey on my back' that we had to get rid of. Half a day into the fast I was violently ill with vomiting. My fiance and my Pastor continued to pray and fast and I stopped fasting and the vomiting disappeared.

That was 7 1/2 years ago and only now God has opened my eyes to what that 'monkey on my back' is. My family has a history of mental health issues. After my second child I suffered Post-Natal Depression and was prescribed anti-depressions which were a God-send. I have been on the medication for 3 years and even continued through a pregnancy and birth of my third son. I am now at a point where I am cutting back to wean myself off the anti-depressants.

I am struggling physically and mentally but have a sense to stand strong and persevere. It was no coincidence that God gave me a scripture early on in my Christian walk which I have drawn strength form time and time again:

Don't be afraid, because I am with you. Don't be intimidated; I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will support you with my victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10 (Italics mine)

I know that the enemy will not let go easily. I have a battle ahead of me. This 'monkey on my back' has been there a while and is quite comfortable. It's not going to react kindly to being told to go. My son's scripture memory verse form Children's Church is:

But thanks be to God who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57

Please stand with me as I prepare for battle and break the generational depression in life.

Still taking lessons from the King,

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