I said an SOS via text message to Bek and Fi to pray for me as I needed help in my war. And that's exactly what it is, a war. They prayed for me when I couldn't. Fi got a scripture for me when praying for me which I have clung on to. Hebrews 11:8 that says:
'It was by faith Abraham obeyed God's call to go to another place God promised to give him. He left his own country, not knowing where he was to go.' (bold mine)
This spoke volumes to me. I realised that I had lived in this place with all my life, but now God was calling me to leave that place by faith! Woah! Scary stuff to step out from a place that you've lived in all your life. But I am clinging to the promise that he will bring me to a new place that I have never known before.
After completing a bible study last Sunday, on the tools of wonder,
I wrote out this statement based on John 2:14:
'I am strong, the Word of God abides in me, and I have overcome the evil one.'
and hung it on the wall. I am using the scriptures as weapons as I know they are truth and you cannot argue with them!
It truly has been an exhausting week, and doing battle is hard work. I went to my women's meeting on Thursday morning knowing that I needed to be there. I hadn't been in almost a year. I had a healing time in worship where I just wept and enjoyed His presence. When I took my seat, the woman that was sharing said, "today I'm sharing about warfare.' I cried. Then she said, 'I've had this message for a while but am only now sharing it.' I cried again. My Father knew that this week, I needed to hear this message. Thta's how much He cares about me! I felt so loved by my Lord. She spoke about generational sins and gave pratical ways and encouragement about how to pray about them. I left more equipped for my own warfare.
On Friday morning my nephew and I prayed against my depression amongst other things and that was the first day of the week that I felt 'normal' all week. I am listening to 'The Desert Song' by Hillsong over and over and over. am still taking it day by day, but I know that I will win this battle find my new land as the battle belongs to the Lord.
Still taking lessons from the King,